so, how do you make the decision, what to control and what to flow with. i believe there is a right answer for everyone. controlling yourself to wake up in the morning reduces stress, so that’s something i need to control. but things like this website, how much should i exert my consciousness? will i get more out of it if I release, to just keep working and have faith that whatever comes out at the end will be worthwhile?
or do I try to make it killer and think of everything I do from outside myself and try to pre-edit. all killer no filler.
the answer is to find the happy medium, but that’s not really an answer. there is no real answer. the answer is how you live your life. every moment is part of the answer.
right now i’m trying to swing the balance. i’ve been doing a lot of neither. not flowing, not controlling, just being stuck. maybe a part of 2008 is that you have to do both. i have to do both. keep control and connect to the animal fabric.
resolution: don’t review my blog posts. just write them and post them. if they suck, acknowlege that I suck sometimes. try harder next time to write something good the first time.
